digging the deep.

i wonder how many people have me all figured out..if all those people who see me realize tat not every smile means tat am happy, tat not every tear can be explained even by myself, && tat even if when it looks like my life looks xo planned out..am still in a state of being lost && confused.

do my family, friends, or even strangers have me figured out yet? can they see past tat wall tat i have created, the act tat am playing out, && the mask tat i have put on to see what am really hiding? who else out there, other than myself, comes close to knowing how i feel, how i think, && what i believe in? or will anyone ever completely figure me out??